I've been told to find a hobby. My hobby is shopping for baby clothes--they fit him perfectly every time. It's too hard to shop for me because nothing fits. Shoes fit and there are only so many pairs that I need or want to wear.
I need a hobby. I have always wanted to sew and be creative. Make toddler clothing :) Maybe a new duvet cover or shorten my own pants.
I would love to take up tennis again--I let that go when I tore my meniscus and now I am terrified to re-injure myself.
Speaking of terrified. Why is it that as soon as I become a mom, all my previous irrational fears changed for the worse? I have lived all over the place and drove insane distances all by myself. Ask me if I can drive down the street now without getting an upset tummy? It's impossible to get ready to go anywhere unless I know I have hours to prepare. What is up with that? Maybe I am depressed.....depressed that i don't have a hobby. haha
I think I need therapy--but I think it's all genetic. This is a genetic problem, right? I have never been without anxiety in my life. It gets worse as I get older. Lots of people do not understand that, one of the most important persons in my life does not get it and it is torture to get them to understand it. Anxiety can control my life....I try to not let that happen. I still work, shop, go out, fly, etc. Maybe not so much when the H1N1 hits this neighborhood. Don't most people want to hibernate thru the flu season this year? I am a teacher, that is gonna be very hard to avoid. Why do I feel that I am the only teacher who wants to provide masks for my students. It's not so bad, is it? Just over-protective. I don't even want to get pregnant for fear it may kill me or the baby. I wonder how many people are choosing to live life a bit different due to the swine flu outbreak that may occur.
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